pw just sux. got back our written report today. loads to do. gosh. i wonder where the time comes from. there wasnt pe today coz it rained. sux. stayed back to discuss pw. after that practised guitar and went for auditions. sux too. sure die.
but jay's songs just rox haha. just love listening to his songs. can't believe how much i like it.. haha. im addicted to them. qi li xiang!!! haha
It's something Mystical
Thursday, August 19, 2004
withers away @ 11:53 pm
i have like damn a lot to blog.. lets start from Sunday.. had an inspiring homily by father iggy.. "if left to deal with everything alone, we will die." i believe so too. i won�t let myself die.. don�t worry too much:) even if everyone else fails me, i still have God. so i wont die. and i believe that there are people around me who are God-sent. treasure them a lot..
did pw in orchard on Sunday too.. me and casie met first.. barney came later coz he juz finish his bball camp.. ended up eating real late.. casie walked in between and she said she felt like a child going out with her parents.
faints.
barney was so out-of-sorts that me and casie wanted to find out what exactly was happening. he wanted to go to the forum to look for his friend who was doing some charity thingy.. but none of us know how to go. in the end joanne came, she knew how to go, and we went there. his friend was selling balloons. in the end he bought 2 heartshaped balloons, one pink one purple for 5 bucks. great. but it was a really sweet pair of balloons. actually i was holding one, joanne was holding one. later joanne pushed hers to me. ended up i was holding both of them. looked weird i think.
we went to coffee bean to do pw. found out that our proposal was sorta marked wrongly. great. and the 1st draft of the written report was due in 3 days. barney started to turn normal and become lame. which we are relieved of. then we started to digress. as usual. casie wanted ice-cream, so joanne accompanied her to macs to buy. they couldn't come inside to eat so they stayed outside. when they came in, casie who was sitting opposite me just looked at me and barney and started laughing. weird. worse still, she couldnt stop laughing. no one understood why. then somehow or another, she came up with the idea of her being the daughter, me being her mama and barney her papa. gosh. joanne ended up being the maid, maria. haha. we were laughing so hard. barney and i were like "huh how did it end up like that?!?!" casie made me and barney take a photo tgt using her cam phone. den joanne with us. casie and her got conspiracy!! they were like whispering to each other. barney and i went "hmm this looks like something bad is going to happen.." indeed. she stood behind us, coz me and barney were sitting down, and when casie was going to shoot, she pushed the two of us tgt. what the. ok nvm. then casie came to take fam photo with us. she sat in the middle of us. took so many of that photo but none came out well.. all because barney refused to cooperate to lean over. so he looked like an outcast haha. well until now i'm still wondering what on earth happened to make things turn out this way. haha. damn comical. but this isn't all..
when we had to go home coz my mum was almost screaming at me, we were thinking of how to dispose of the balloons. none of us wanted to bring it home. ok i wanted to but i couldn't. mum will probably probe like mad. and say how did a pw session turn out to have balloons involved. casie wanted me to bring it home coz "its a present from papa to mama". gosh. she must be trying to divert attention. ohyah. she came in between us also and said she should look like a child and hold hands with her papa and mama. so we held hands and she just refused to hold hands with barney hahahahah.. haiz nvm haha.. just leave them alone..
oh great sunday has just taken up so many words.. ohyah the balloons in the end were just left beside a nice lighted up tree. yupz. mon.. had maths make up lecture.. went home pretty late. checked out the roof which beabu had recommended. weepz could get thru! haha. miracle. erm.. nothing much happened i guess.. ok maybe i just have a bad memory. ok i do have a bad memory.
tues.. pia pw written report first draft like mad.. until about 7. gosh. barney sorta scared us again. didnt say a word during the session. we just left him alone to scribble all his thoughts. intensive thinking of pw on his part is actually quite useful. but scary at the same time. when he finally said something, he sounded so perverted. not as bad as sum but still. then he went to stand beside the railings, look out and stone. we all think he's stressed. just left him alone. but he said he's not. i think most guys work this way. well.. later ate dinner with lg. long time since we ate out alone. long time since i ate with cyn. haiz. and bea and el and mel. haiz.
wed.. was sleeping like a pig.. just too tired i guess.. i was just too pissed. too damn pissed when you refused to listen to me and kept asking me to shut up. ultimately all this translated to nothing but tears. tried so hard to keep them from falling. succeeded. i usually do if i really want to. just don't want you all to see my tears. it would look so damn stupid. sorry, i think i just overreacted. i know you didnt mean it. but i was just too pissed to dismiss it at that. sorry..
today.. nothing much.. oh i like qi li xiang alot.. gosh.. was writing lyrics of it on my econs tut during econs today.. throughout pe lesson while playing tennis i was humming it.. gosh.. wonder how i did that.. actually didnt like it so much when i first heard it.. but the more i listen the more i love it. his songs always have this effect. and i will like different parts of the same song at different times.. qi li xiang's a poem. v long time since i last had time and inspiration to write something like this. haiz..
well now i like this part.. hee..
yu xia zheng ye
wo de ai yi chu jiu xiang yu shui
yuan zi luo ye
gen wo de si nian hou hou yi die
ji ju shi fei
ye wu fa jiang wo de re qing leng que
ni chu xian zai wo shi de mei yi ye
qi li xiang by jay
It's something Mystical
Sunday, August 15, 2004
withers away @ 11:40 pm
i want to send mr lee off. but mum didnt allow me to stay overnight on mon. expected. got me all disappointed. haiz. i think she thinks im pissed. i ignored her for hours and just gave a dao look. couldnt help it. i knew if i talked my tone would sound really bad. haiz. not as though i cant take care of myself. i know she's worried. well it just so reminds me of what happened last yr for the genting trip thing. im turning 18 soon.. haiz nvm..
oh in my hurry forgot the blog about us going back to ny on thurs. so interesting. i must blog it. this whole gang of us went back to ny for no apparent reasons. it was only jasmine who wanted to go back to give out survey forms. casie wanted to accompany her. whole pw group went. so lg came along too. somehow managed to smuggle barney in hahahaha the whole thing was so damn funny. he was so embarrassed he just stood outside the gate at first. in the end faked that he was jasmine's group member. the rest of us all ex-ny girls. haha so joanne managed to come in too. went to canteen to eat. first teacher we met: tac. best. what the. oh saw mdm toh too.. she was eating lunch with tac.. met pck too. she's pregnant! talked a bit. barney turned so red when he was sitting there looking so out of place hahaha.. damn funny.. we were saying that if we stand up and shout that he's from tch, he will confirm die. haha. then saw some juniors running in choir gowns. wrecking brain to think what will happen in this time of the year. in the end managed to talk to.. what's her name.. cheryl isit.. and victoria.. was so nice talking to them again.. heez.
jasmine casie and barney went on to give out survey forms. it was actually only jasmine doing the job. casie and barney just kept talking.. later they disppeared.. we just let them disappear haha.. then brought joanne around.. then me and lg went to look for teachers. saw mrs wong. the maths one. obviously the other mrs wong wont be around. she just gave birth. haha.. me and lg just stood outside the maths dept door and looked at mrs wong while she was doing work, waiting for her to spot us. she took quite some time. haha. then came out talked to us only for a while and went back. she was busy. oh then later we went to sit the swing at the main gate! damn nice!! haha. well when we reached there casie and barney were on one side, karen and jasmine on the other. the guard was staring so hard. haha. juniors too. then barney got off. all the rest of us got on. made barney swing us haha. then casie went off. barney refused to sit down beside me lah. hmmmm haha. he only wants to sit with.. ok fine. haha. in the end he still didnt sit though he wanted to so as to make us stop all the crap. guard was still staring. haha. didnt really bother. we were supposed to do pw. best. haha. played with the tyre swing too. it was nice going back to ny. haiz realised i miss ny so much. hui dao guo qu.. how impossible..
oh and yesterday while walking along the walkway out of the gate, me and lg spotted someone familiar across the fence, sitting at the stone table beside the courts. haha. mrs wong! haha. so we called out to her. she couldnt see us properly. stood up and leaned forward. realisation. "hiyo you all two again!" haha. so damn funny. oh yah yesterday also pon pe to do pw. what the.
there's no need for speculation now. keep your mind at rest. i suppose there's no need to worry too much. to say really, i knew what you were going to say. and i think i can guess what you want to ask. haha. i just hope everything turns out fine. i need to concentrate on sch work now. promos aren't v far away. im lagging behind like shit. and there's nothing called a study break.
It's something Mystical
Friday, August 13, 2004
withers away @ 11:28 am
mr lee's last lesson today. so we had combined. miss him so much. gosh. want to send him off but his flight is at 6am next tues. best. we were thinking of staying overnight in changi airport on mon. that's how much we like him. i want cosy for maths teacher!!!
well capt ball. one win one lose. we lost too badly for the 2nd round. haiz. didn't get through. im still not catching up with work. this is bad. actually its expected.. but its the weekends.. hiya it all goes down to im too lazy. dont feel like doing work then dont do.. i have to force myself to! haha
wo ting zhe hai lang
wen rou de hu xi
wo kan zhe yun duo
piao lai piao qu
you shen me fang fa
rang zi ji zhen de wang ji
sha tan by tao zhe
It's something Mystical
Wednesday, August 11, 2004
withers away @ 12:24 am
i just hope i have the strength. oh well there are just so many stuff that i haven't done! this week is definitely going to be hectic. bless me. i need the strength to carry on.
It's something Mystical
Sunday, August 08, 2004
withers away @ 10:45 pm
hey hey it was sheer fun on fri!!! oh in the morning it was a little boring.. lg and i were commenting on red chickens across the road.. this sounds weird but anyway, terra won the NE trophy!! yoohoo!! we were so mad that we cheered and screamed like no one's business and ran one round on the track. gosh. then joan and i danced the mass dance together somehow though none of us knew the guy's part haha. so perhaps perhaps perhaps was in a whole big mess hahaha.
then we waited for weepz and sean and barney and yan chuan to finish their training and go harbour front tgt. in the end sean barney and yan chuan were noware to be seen. haha. so our gang minus jc went off. i was so tired that i was almost sleeping throughout the whole trip.
sentosa was fun!!! glad that it didnt rain. if not i bet it wouldnt be half as fun. met bea there too! we wanted to play frisbee but it didnt turn out well. in the end the guys ended up playing it. we tried vball. didnt work too. in the end we dragging people out into the sea. casie so didnt want to get into the water. me and lg were trying to drag her. she kept screaming and clinging on to sishan. hahaha. it was so funny.. ultimately i just dragged her all the way and both of us fell into the water haha.
oh then we swam to the float to.. erm.. sun tan? actually i didnt intend to get one but anyway just went there. i just started to try to swim and realized that i forgot how to. haha. well but somehow i had to since i couldnt feel the seabed anymore. so i got it back haha. slacking is so fun! haha. me and lg had to swim over to get casie to the float since she was too scared. oh and casie and gang kept on calling ch ahmad. gosh. i was like so damn embarrassed. in the end the whole day also never talk to him much. we had a fun time. haha. but we were hungry. asked yang to go back and get food. but he didnt come back. what the.. we were like complaining about him haha. i think he's scared of us. pushed him into the water twice. haha. he said he wanted to push us, but he realized there were just too many gals to deal with. haha.
had a nice time with the sun, water and channels 1 and 2. ok and some food. and some talk. overall it was fun and relaxing. yes relaxing is the word. free and easy to do what you like. and some thoughts and reflections. i love the beach.
oh then we played monkey since we got sick of the float. mang juin was so very funny!!! he was the monkey right from the beginning till the end! haha.
later we went for dinner at harbour front. gosh. ended up eating with lg barney and casie. so bright. anyway me casie and barney were complaining about how often we see each other. on fri for dinner, on sat for lunch, today for lunch. if we continued with our plan of having pw again tml, we'll meet for dinner tml. gosh. and on wed for lunch. can't believe sometimes that i see my pw members more than i see joan and lg. haha. oh then me lg yang xuan and barney went to the arcade. and stone. haha. best sia! then we went home.
ok now about ytd. *gosh why is there countless stuff to blog about* had mentoring at keming. were quite apprehensive about it. dunno how the kids would be like. esp after learning what happened to xuan on thurs. haha. in the end i reached first and started looking at maths vectors notes. gosh cant believe i actually did that. later barney arrived. both of us just kept yawning. too tired haha. everyone ended up late. and turned out that mentoring only starts at 8.30, not 8. and lg has gotten me all worried. her phone was off in the morning. she didnt turn up for mentoring. half way through mentoring her phone was on but no one picked it up. no replies for smses. i assume her phone is with her mum. but why didn't she go for mentoring? told mum about it and she said she may have gone to genting again and too late to inform us. o_O. still havent contacted her yet. in the end mentoring went ok. 6 people from our class turned up. me barney casie karen clare jasmine. and we all tutored one kid. haha. he was so scared of barney! intimidated by his sheer size i think haha. then we went for lunch at westmall. couldnt eat much since i was going home for lunch. in the end there was so much food left casie jasmine and barney were trying their best to squeeze down the food. the last popcorn chicken had to be eaten up by me coz i lost in a game of scissors paper stone with barney. oh man can't believe it.
ok now about today. went to orchard to do pw. for the entire afternoon. well typical of our group i guess. ended up in coffee bean doing it since there was no space in the library. so we saw people come and go but we were still stuck in our freezing little corner discussing pw. at first it wasnt really productive as usual. i thought that would be the end of it. suddenly barney just babbled a whole lot of good evaluation. started all of us thinking and joanne writing like crazy. argued like crazy too. but it was a real fruitful session. casie was so scared coz barney really appeared serious. i didnt think much about it. barney also asked me on the trip home if he was. but i seriously didnt think anything much about it until tonight. he really like become really serious. gosh. just didnt seem really like him. wonder what he is thinking. hope he's all right. maybe me and casie are just too sensitive.
oh my finally finished blogging about these 3 days. i just hope i can do my work properly. have been falling asleep every time i try to do work these few days. i must finish doing most of my stuff tml.
its really not that i dont trust you or anything like that. dont ask me for a reason because i dont have one. to most people what i do is only listen. and i am contented with that. don't worry about me because i will really turn out ok. i know you want to help. you are not the only one. but somehow im not someone to confide in many. i kept quiet because i didnt know what to say. i just didnt know what to say. there are so few people i truly confide in now. ok i should say only two. its not because i dont trust the rest or im not close to you or what. i think this is difficult to believe but it is really the case. i believe this will continue to stay this way because i am really contented with it.
no lyrics. today's pw session was good though super mentally taxing.
It's something Mystical
Thursday, August 05, 2004
withers away @ 10:20 pm
oh well today bio banding was out. haiz someone needs to be the buffer again.. my heart goes out to you haha.. and kena pd somemore.. sad case yah... mine though not mrs che, but ok alright is hopefully still better than pd. but casie is quite scared haha..
throughout the day joan was really tired until sch ended.. dear u need sleep! haha.. take care of yourself k.. even mr tan tried to show concern for you yah.. haha..
sometimes its not that i don't want to tell u stuff.. its just that.. actually i also dunno.. its not that i dun trust u.. i guess i'm just not used to trusting more than one person on the same issue at the same time. maybe i'll never get used to it. i dunno lah. but please be rest assured the problem doesnt lie with u. so dun feel useless. just dun irritate me with i dunno what policeman and watermelon and ahmad. when im in a good mood its still ok. when im not all that crap just makes me feel worse. sometimes the teasing really gets on my nerves. i mean how long has it been on!!?!?! all started again because of you!! hahahaha
cyn dear relax.. i know a lot has happened.. and u always have to summarise everything for me since we dun really have a lot of time.. me too.. fact is i have stuff to tell u.. but havent say yet.. haiz.. i dunno lah.. i.. i.. ok forget it.. i shall find time in the national day holidays to tell u or email u.. i need to tell u.. i think.. just feel weird when something happens and i dont tell u..
looking forward to sentosa trip!! last time we went sentosa was orientation for amazing race.. on fri my bday i still remember.. fond memories..
bu guan bie ren zen me kan wo
wo zhi xiang xin ai mei cuo
bu yao dui wo huai yi tai duo
huo qu cai ce wo men de yi hou
ai guo by penny
It's something Mystical
Tuesday, August 03, 2004
withers away @ 11:12 pm
today was fun! capt ball match! haha. we won. 2 matches out of 3. nearly died in the 2nd one. ran so much. gosh. but it was a good fight. so we qualify for finals! next thurs. and lib duty hours are gonna suffer. havent done any this term and we're supposed to do 16h. great.
well mum refused to let me go out for dinner, but eventually still went out with the gang minus emster to ps to eat. me and lg sat down for abt 10min and left. well we expected it. i was actually hesitating whether to go home or not. but ended up wasting money haha. ok i just love our gang too much. well lg walked me to the bus stop. yeah thanks dear:) so ate dinner at like 9+ today?
ok that's abt all. should go. and i dunno do what. ok i don't make sense.
ai zong shi rang ren ku
rang ren jue de bu man zu
tian kong hen da que kan bu qing chu
hao gu du
tian hei hei by sun yanzi
It's something Mystical
withers away @ 12:20 am
just finished practising my guitar! yeah! haha. oh today was a halfday for us haha. so we didnt have much lessons. only maths tut and bio prac. haha. after break it was contact, and we were supposed to watch some skit. we ended up talking at our class stoning area. and talk and stone somemore after that, coz people kept leaving and reappearing. we had to wait for everyone to come before going for lunch.
oh yes before i continue, i have to talk abt barney's bdae. ok barney aka hoone aka kwang mei aka.. ok a whole lot. well we've ie me casie and joanne have thought about this quite long ago and decided to get him something ourselves besides the present from the class. in the end casie bought him a shirt. i was in charge of buying the giant pocky that he loves to eat haha. this one only our pw group know i think. damn funny haha. in the end bea bought it for moi *hugs* thanks! we wanted to use contact session to sing the birthday song, but contact was taken up by the skit. wanted to use econs tut, it was announced that today is halfday. so we decided to do it after bio prac. casie and i were so excited from ytd till today. i conclude we are mad. ok. haha. coz ytd me and casie agreed to send him a msg with bdae wishes. and casie's msg was to tell him that we have no more money in the class fund and so he has no present. haha. oh we sang the bdae song after prac, gave him the shirt and made him eat one of the sour warheads sweets. gosh his expression!! haha me and casie were so looking forward towards it. coz we knew that he is so afraid of sour stuff. we made him eat it before we gave him the giant pocky which he calls qiao ke li bang bing.. fine.. haha.. he was so delighted! haha.
wow that was long. ok. back to lunch. so we went to kap for lunch. it was the full whole gang minus jc. ate so much i was almost bursting. couldnt finish the fries. oh yang is still sick. so he cant eat much. another joker lah. got admitted into tan tock seng emergency dept coz he was having damn high fever and wheezing. suspected of sars. gosh. haha. nearly scare me. still sick ah.. but he still come sch. haiz.
oh weepz joan lg and i went back to sch.. balcony.. played cards there.. its a nice place.. should go there for future "night duties".. see stars.. heez
ai zhen de xu yao yong qi
lai mian dui liu yan fei yu
zhi yao ni yi ge yan shen ken ding
wo de ai jiu you yi yi
wo men dou xu yao yong qi
qu xiang xin hui zai yi qi
ren chao yong ji wo neng gan jue ni
fang zai wo shou xin li
ni de zhen xin
yong qi by fish
It's something Mystical
Monday, August 02, 2004
withers away @ 12:31 am
damn my com. it hung. and all went my whole post. damn it. shall attempt to reproduce it.
been v bad this week.. it must be bad influence.. blame it on weepz..
yang is sick. gosh. really thought he was faking it during pe. who knows he was really ill. and still come to sch.. hope he gets enough rest..
on thurs me and lg supposedly have lib night duty. after rotting for a while in the lib we went to j8 to watch spiderman2. brought back memories.. but it was a fun session. dragged weepz to watch the show though he didnt want to at first. haha how can he fight against 3 of us? it was so damn cold inside the cinema.. me and lg were shivering.. shan't talk about the other two.. sure v warm.. after the movie we went to macs to stone and talk. haha laughed so much until we all nearly died. then it rained cats and dogs. ok donkeys if you like. dashed onto the bus. so got ourselves all drenched. my teeth were chattering literally. eventually talked and stayed still to keep ourselves warm. talked a whole lot. gosh. is that good? i dont know.. ok so we finally reached but it was still raining.. no point running all the way in since we'll get drenched. and i'll get killed by my mum. we will get killed by our mums. so we stood under the overhead bridge and flagged for a taxi. it took so damn long to come. and where were we heading? across the road. that must have sounded real stupid. reached sch finally. called our mums. went to the locker then to the unlit raintree. it was good that it was unlit. if not they would have laughed at me even more. gosh. lucky i wasnt feeling sad or what that day, or else i would have drunk more and got even redder. gosh. only lg was normal. even weepz was red. ok he cant drink too. then went to drink green tea to get rid of the smell. went to the toilet to look in the mirror. and i mean all of us went into the girls toilet haha. i should have went to the guys one. got worried when i looked into the mirror. oh well. but there was nothing i could do. then we left only to find the main gate locked. damnation. and it was still raining. i was stuck on top of the gate for the longest. gosh forgive me lah this is the first time i broke so many rules. then sat in weepz parents lorry to get out. thank god. after i got on the bus, i made the air con blow directly at my face haha. lucky mum didnt see anything wrong with me. guess i can only drink during chalets. and get drunk. and get hangover. ok that's bad. the next day all of us sorta got hangover. all were sleepy. gosh. haha.
ytd: went for mentoring then sectionals then hc carnival. bz yah! shan't elaborate. its 1am now. met cyn! hahaha. so nice.
ok guess i should go.
shi xu gou de dian ying
que kan dao lei fan gun
ru guo ai bu na me shen
jie ju shi bu shi jiu bu hui shang ren
ai qing dian ying